This is why I could never keep a journal…
Coming with the landscape of my Myers-Briggs INTP personality type, I’m a perfectionist to the uttermost, especially when it comes to articulating ideas. What this means in outworking is that it’s completely normal for me to just stop in the middle of a series and disappear from the blogosphere for a couple months; because if I find that I’m unsettled about the content of that series, or if I find that in digging I’ve come upon a whole new batch of ideas that need to be cleaned up and worked into its presentation, then I must take my fingers off of the keyboard and go back to the process of excavation.
So I’ve been plowing away at Romans and Galatians in prayer, careful reading, rereading, consulting commentaries and having conversation after conversation. My heart is alive while I sit with at the feet of the Apostle and hear him tell the story of redemption, exulting the faithfulness of our God now unveiled through Jesus the Messiah. I’m stopping by to reassure you, I will return to this blog. There’s still a long way to go and a whole lot more to say on Paul’s theme of justification by faith. But If you’re an INTP, I’m sure you understand how it is.
I think in one sense or another Matt, we can all relate to this. Especially if it is a theological understanding hanging in the balance as this inparticuar subject of choice is.
Even as you say, in journalling, I will get a writers block because I feel as if my words have left my mouth (or hand for that matter, while writing) & I can’t take them back. I want it to be as clear as possible lest I bring about a wrong perception of my writing or heart towards the matter. I have to stop and realize, “Oh yeah, God knows what I’m talking about. If I’m writing to Him why did I just write this disclaimer?”
Hey, God bless Matt, I pray God brings revelation and understanding to you during this unfolding! Laying it out as a map to his treasure house.
jonnyprice
Monday, July 7, 2008 at 4:02 pm
Yo,
Yeah I get it… don’t take too long though, I was loving the series despite the controversy (I mean, I got it… contemplate faithfulness in the place of faith in some passages, what’s the big deal…).
So what’s cooking in your spirit now?
Washington
Monday, July 14, 2008 at 8:46 am
I think I can sympathize with you. In all honesty, I wish that I could write in installments like you do. Unfortunately, once I get going there isn’t much stopping. Sometimes I forget to come up for air. I suppose I’ve always been that way, even in grade school. If I can’t finish a paper in an allotted amount of time, I’ll usually end up starting over from scratch at a later date. I could learn a lot from your writing style. Maybe I’ll tackle a series in the coming months, but until then I’ll post stream of consciousness monstrosities like the one I wrote today. I’ll agree with jonnyprice’s comment above about not being able to take back the things I’ve written, as if they’re in stone. It’s like buyer’s remorse…but for writers.
theothergabriel
Wednesday, July 16, 2008 at 11:46 pm